As we commemorated Jesus’ Last Super and the washing of the feet on Thursday, April 2nd in a special service, the only thing that came to my mind was,” how did Jesus feel and what was going through His mind as he was cutting the bread and giving the disciples the wine knowing that soon he would be betrayed and knowing the suffering He would have to endure?”
As I pondered this about Christ, I asked Him to let me feel just a very small amount of what He was feeling in that moment. The answer I received was not what I was expecting. I was expecting to feel fear, anxiety, uncontrollable urge to cry, helplessness, anger, restlessness and can you believe I felt non of those things. Instead an overwhelming love and peace came over me. Almost as if nothing was even going to happen. I was perplexed and dumbfounded. The question that came to my mind was,”How was this possible?” Only Christ Himself can answer that question.
Isaiah 53:3-5 says,”He was hated and rejected by people. He had much pain and suffering. People would not even look at him. He was hated, and we didn’t even notice him. But he took our suffering on him and felt our pain for us. We saw his suffering and thought God was punishing him. But he was wounded for the wrong we did; he was crushed for the evil we did. The punishment, which made us well, was given to him, and we are healed because of his wounds.”
Would you have been able to go through with it? Would you have been able to stay calm knowing what was going to happen? Would you even had gone through with it, even if all you had to do was the suffering and not the dieing?
Just something to think about in this moment of reflection.